UNCHANGEABLE

today's feelings was a mixed .
happy cuz POP dint reali have a big big prob .
damn disappointed in myself cuz i fail my ssgt again .
i saw the results tat time , my heart sank .
i passed my 1st class drill badge but i fail my ssgt
wads the point of getting the 1st class drill badge when i fail my ssgt and cant get to wear the badge ?
i m reali at a loss of words .
i dunno wad to say la
i m lyk ... oh god . i failed again
mr khoo say he will help me double check my results but i doubt tat it will change to a gd news
forget it . i m alrdy demoralised to take anymore promotion tests alrdy . I GIVE UP .
i hate myself . perhaps i m not cut out for npcc ?
dunno la . damn demoralise now !
cryin now and then ....